Dreams

I am definitely a dreamer. I have dreams all the damn time and I definitely ALWAYS feel as though there is meaning behind them. Well I've recently learned, that my mind is super sensitive before I fall asleep. So if my mind is fixed on something someone said, or even if something is bothering me then I will probably have a really crazy dream. I also seem to dwell on small things like what I've read or something because I had a dream that I was pregnant. OH NO! Can I like OD on birth control? Remember "a pill a day keeps the babies away" but the dream was super dramatic because my stomach was small as hell, I delivered my own baby, my boyfriend was there, but we couldn't think of a name, and then like 2 hours later I was walking around. Hah ! Crazy as hell, I know. But still, I hope that it was just a dream, well I know that it was just a dream because currently I'm not pregnant. We're just going to keep it like that people. 

I'm not Depressed. CHILL.

I want to make cupcakes. A bunch of them.

Drink lots & lots of vodka.

Then drink a campfire mocha from Caribou & read Harry Potter with my Ugg slippers.

Oh how I miss thee

So I told myself starting the 1st of June I would write every day. I know it looks like I didn't yesterday.. But I couldn't. i don't know what happen ! Anyway, my speakers work again ! Thank god, I like yanked the headphones out of the outlet & it made the red light go away and the speakers play sound ! Yay to movies with sound ... ;]

Now back to the regular scheduled program..

Today :

I miss... 

His smile.

His face. 

His laugh.

His touch

His embrace.

His heart.

His swag.

His being.

I miss his kiss.

The way he looks at me.

The way we interact.

His corny jokes.

His 45 min showers .. little fishy

I miss him a lot today.

 

 New Orleans. Puerto Rico. Chipotle. Melodic Alien .

my other half .

 

Rain Clouds

Today it's raining . Which fits my mood; sort of.

It's the weekend, right in the middle . 

I had a weird dream last night, so many random people.

I like to analyze my dreams, maybe there's a message hidden deep within.

Today I could just sleep all day.

Or, be with you. That's not going to happen we both know this.

But another option: get lost in one of the 50 books I'm sure I own.

Not nearly enough, I'm working on it.

My mind is scattered with so many thoughts, one word makes me take a completely different path.

I have all these decisions I want to make. need to really.

I want to help so many people, but sometimes I just need to help myself.

Have you ever felt alone, and your surrounded by lots of people.

Sometimes I feel like that, a lot of times.

Distractions need to come easier, I think if I moved to Seattle I would actually enjoy the weather.

Watched another movie on netflix =]

Remember the Daze .

Life.

 2010.4.06

So today was the last day of work for the week, and I got to be done early. GREAT way to start the weekend.. yeah ?

Well I thought this too, UNTIL my speakers on my mac book stopped functioning which is wack because I was JUST using them like not even 5 mins before they started acting all childish . My  child [ the computer ] is slowly dying on me, and it needs to go to the emergency room!  Unfortunately the bill is probably going to be out of this world. I still have to save it though, but seriously.. hang on and don't die on me.

Besides feeling sort of overwhelmed I was getting really really irritated and then I went and read this . Thank god it was a new post, because I already read the rest of them, one of my fav blogs hands down. Anyway, my birthday is soon, almost 2 weeks exactly.. I have mixed feelings about it. I want to do so much, but then at the same time I'm just like blah.. not a good year to feel like this.. it's my golden birthday plus I'll for real be legal which means I can do all the stuff I usually do anyway, legally =]

I'm all over the place here so stick with me, I've been really craving sushi, like really really bad. I had it for the first time with my SPR (sexy puerto rican ) and it was amazing to say the least. The kind I had was rolled backwards, so rice on the outside, with salmon, cream cheese, & guac (mouth waters ) I could so go for that right now, along with a chipotle burrito that my cousin has been promising me for three days .. LOSER.

Today I watched this movie called The life before her eyes.. it was confusing as shit, but really good. If you're bored like me ( I have a months trial for netflix) you should watch. First 5 minutes definitely sucked me in.

Anyway, I'm off to the gym.. I got weight to shed.

aww that just made me think of him. =[

toodlez .

# 18

I'm pretty sure I found him .

Sunshine .

19 Days til Summer

I choose to be with the person that makes me most happy

To laugh at things that need to be laughed at

To be as carefree as my heart desires

And to not give a fuck about those who don't matter

- Spanish Moss [ that's me ]

I may still not know what I want to be when I grow up,
but I do know that someday I want to live in a house filled with my books and travel souvenirs.
and the walls that aren’t covered in bookshelves will be covered with photos of my family and friends.
when I leave the house I will be going to a job i love, and I'll  return to a person i love.
so, that’s the dream I'm working on.