Rainy Days. Stevie Wonder. Harry Potter 6.

So right now I'm in the kitchen, listening to the down pour of the rain for the second day in a row. Im cooking dinner tonight and I'm bored so I thought since I didn't write I would do some blogging tonight. Im working on getting to school this semester still; although time seems to be going by super fast Im determined to meet my goal. Today was pretty boring for the most part, I didn't do too much just some laundry and took care of some stuff for school. I might be getting an off campus apartment instead of living in the dorms on campus. Overall it's looking cheaper and it's kind of exciting too, I mean an apartment, yay me. Hopefully everything goes good with that situation so it's one less thing to worry about. Paying for school seems to be so complicated but I guess you get more benefits the more time and effort you put into your search. I just really dislike looking for scholarships, I mean I take ALL that time writing an essay and trying to make it sound wonderful and then I don't get anything for it... that pretty much sucks to me. Now although I hate to do all this work, I'm determined to not have to touch another loan for the rest of the time in school. I mean yeah taking out all these loans seem to be so beneficial but interest rates are a B*****. Seriously, who wants to leave school and be in debt, I am definitely not putting my hand up, because I don't want to be in that situation.

So onto the next subject, try listening to Stevie Wonder and listening to the rain.. it's so relaxing almost makes you forget about any worries you have.. ALMOST. So I've decided to do numerous posts about Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. See I went and seen the movie and now I'm rereading the book and I've seen so many differences that it is ridiculous. I guess you could say that Im disappointed in the movie itself, it's so not fair that they left so many things out and then added that retarded scene into the movie.

Side Note: So I was reading this article today on Yahoo! and it showed this man who had mean a living without money at all. Now let me just say this his means of living were obviously not extravagant but he still managed to figure out a way to survive for three years without spending any money at all. Hell he even had a blog, but Im quoting him for something that he said in the article that I found interesting and it reminded me of a conversation that me and the boyfriend had. "Money represents lack. Money represents things in the past (debt) and things in the future (credit), but money never represents what is present."

But anyway back to the harry potter differences.. Im still in the middle of reading the book but here's what I've gotten so far..

Dudley is really blonde in the book not dark hair as he is presented in the movies from the very first one that came out

The Hogwarts express is in indeed scarlet not black, unless I read it wrong because I am aware they quote " scarlet smoke" often when talking about it

Tonks is the one who found Harry on the floor after he was petrified by Malfoy not Luna "looney" lovegood

Snape took Harry up to the castle when he was late, not Hagrid.

Fleur never made an appearance in the movie and neither did bill.. (which really sucks because it was quite entertaining to read in the book, calling phlgem hahah)

Professor Slughorn was described as quite large and bald in the movie he wasn't what I expected but he was NOT bald.

The lucky potion given to Harry Potter in the book was said to be gold, the potion in the movie was water. CLEARLY.

Also I was looking forward to the caldron showing the potion of the felix felicis and it didn't show. Disappointed yet again

Dumbledore doesn't go to the borrow with Harry instead he sends him there by hisself

The slug club meeting was on the hogwarts express in the book not in the castle

Now I know some of these are like.. really? who cares but these are some things that just stood out to me but don't worry for those of you who were entertained. I will surely post more as I continue to read.

Today I was upset. frustrated. COLD. very COLD.

Let's start with this ridiculous weather, the temp in the car says 67.. that is BS. I had a sweatshirt on today and was still cold. It was gloomy out. It felt like the beginning of FALL. This is NOT okay MN. NOT OKAY.

For the past TWO days I have put up with this and I want my REAL summer weather ASAP.

Im glad I could have this conversation with you MN weather. Now straighten up and act right.

I am upset because it seems like it's impossible for me to get the remaining amount of money that I need in order to start school in the fall. I am trying to be patient and have faith. I am very big on faith and hope so this is definitely a test. I hope to pass with flying colors but this is becoming very frustrating. Which brings me to my last emotion of the day.

Frustration. My family is very dysfunctional. Look it up in the dictionary and you will see a picture of MY family. Not even pretending to be FUNCTIONAL in the picture no.. not at all. There is pure entertainment going on in this picture, with my 8 year old brother acting like he is TWO. He is very spoiled and takes advantage of being the baby of the family, ( which most people should say I need to give him the benefit of the doubt, but if you could be in the same room with him for 24 hours without wanting to fight him KUDOS to you. )

I am going to be okay. I am determined to make this goal possible. But for now I needed to vent; and the best place that I could think of would be my blog at 2:35 in the morning. Im not as whiny as this post makes me. And with that being said ( for you lilly, I started a sentence with AND :) ) I will end this post on a good note.

My boyfriend makes me smile. He's the best. He is the sunshine of my life. :)

I am happy again.

School.

There are definitely a lot of things I could say about this topic. Im super excited to be starting at Virginia State but I'm also very confused and frustrated because I thought there was more help out there to be able to pay for school. It sucks to not have amazing credit already and always needing a co-signer. I'm so close to my goal, seriously I can like reach out and grab it and it's driving me insane. I guess I want it to be handed to me, but OF COURSE nothing in life is handed to you. NOTHING. So I need to suck it up and look harder. But everywhere I look as far as scholarships go there for high school seniors. Boo to them...

On a good note I've decided to minor in spanish major in nursing. Super excited about that of course, they always need people who can speak two languages you know. Bilingual means more money and who doesn't love money. I'm hoping I make so much money that I can use my first year salary and pay all my loans back. Wouldn't that be amazing. I definitely think it would, or I win the lottery in like the last year of college. That would be even more amazing.. ahhh the wonders of your imagination. Oh gee. Well I thought this definitely deserved a post, had to get it off my mind so now I can pretend that Im not going to think about it up until the time I need to leave. 3 weeks, I've never been so indecisive about a time period in my life. Sigh...

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So I'm going to try and write more on blog, it seems to help when you let things out more often than keeping them bottled up anyway. So today was pretty boring I didn't do much; just stayed in the house for the most part. I'm super anxious for school to start in August but at the same time I feel like stacks of bills are piling up in front of me and I'm anxiously looking for a way to bring them down. I've been working at Dairy Queen now for about 3 1/2 years, and I'm currently suppose to be in Hampton, Va for summer school. But as the current situation is: I am not. For various reasons but the number one reason being that Hampton University is a HBCU ( Historically Black College & University) and although it's suppose to be prestigious it sucks horribly. They are so unorganized and rude it's ridiculous. So anyway seeing as I'm back in Minnesota I thought I could stock up on some hours but because of this "Wonderful" economy we live I am not getting barely any hours AT ALL. I'm currently " ON CALL" for the next month and I'm suppose to leave in a month. How grand is that? Oh so very grand; because during this time my phone bill will rise as well as crappy left over bills from the doctor because my insurance is RETARDED not to mention the great decision I decided to make when investing in a credit card at the young and tender " i think I'm grown" age of 18. Please people if you haven't gotten credit card please DO NOT DO IT. It's like a ticking time bomb, and so easily able to get you into knee deep debt. Which is why I responsibly decided to tear mine to pieces and once it's paid off I will feel completely free. So on top of those wonderful things that are building up I also need to come up with 400 dollars for a housing deposit and 100 dollars to send a paper to the school saying " Yes, I will be attending in the fall" NEVER in my LIFE did I know a paper could be so expensive. GRRR.

So as all this happening I'm waiting to get an award letter from the school letting me know how much they will give me for the school year. I really think Financial Aid could be so much more helpful just because it seems like they don't give you anything at all. I mean the school is like 22,000 a year I guess and I mean what I MAY get like 2 in grants but then I have to turn around and take out a crap load of loans and that's frustrating because then I have to pay those BITCHES back. That's not okay at all. I mean seriously, with the government spending so much money on things that are a little less important I definitely think we should be able to get more help for school; because honestly 2 grand ain't shit when I need to come up with 20 more. You think I got that shit stowed away. Not even. I wish.