"Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone, in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It's for those knowing a good thing when they see it even if they don't see it nearly enough" - Cubanbunny's blog
This pretty much sums up how I'm feeling about this whole long distance thing the second time around. I miss him, point blank period. We had the chance to get close over the last 5 months and it meant so damn much to me. To be around each other, to lay on him if I wanted to, or kiss him when I wanted to. People take that type of thing for granted being around their significant other, you know the whole " you never know what you have until it's gone".. ugh it sucks. Which you would think it would be easier since we've done this before, but I got so comfortable being around him, as the time got closer to me leaving it became more and more overwhelming. I have this happiness around him that's indescribable, and I just want that happiness back. I just want to laugh, and be on the beach again, throwing the Frisbee and making up our salsa dance =].. but unfortunately I have to wait, and I don't like waiting.
Trying to focus on the next time I see him is what I need to do, and trying to not be sad/upset is the second thing I need to do. But of course, things are always "easier said than done" blah blah blah blah. I basically just want what I want and I want it now. I sound like the little girl in Charlie & the Chocolate Factory who was a brat. So maybe I am a brat when it comes to him, I just want him back. Baby come back? Please
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This pretty much sums up how I'm feeling about this whole long distance thing the second time around. I miss him, point blank period. We had the chance to get close over the last 5 months and it meant so damn much to me. To be around each other, to lay on him if I wanted to, or kiss him when I wanted to. People take that type of thing for granted being around their significant other, you know the whole " you never know what you have until it's gone".. ugh it sucks. Which you would think it would be easier since we've done this before, but I got so comfortable being around him, as the time got closer to me leaving it became more and more overwhelming. I have this happiness around him that's indescribable, and I just want that happiness back. I just want to laugh, and be on the beach again, throwing the Frisbee and making up our salsa dance =].. but unfortunately I have to wait, and I don't like waiting.
Trying to focus on the next time I see him is what I need to do, and trying to not be sad/upset is the second thing I need to do. But of course, things are always "easier said than done" blah blah blah blah. I basically just want what I want and I want it now. I sound like the little girl in Charlie & the Chocolate Factory who was a brat. So maybe I am a brat when it comes to him, I just want him back. Baby come back? Please
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